There was a time in my life where it felt like I was being moved by a force greater than my own. I wasn't the rainmaker. Opportunities weren't because of my own actions or ideas. I wasn't the one making things happen. This presence or feeling would draw me to a place. Or I would feel a push in a certain direction. An urgency to do or say something right in that moment. It never failed me. I thought it was trusting my instincts. I was actually trusting something far greater.
When I was in college and when I first graduated, friends would say - "You have such a charmed life! You always seem to be in the right place at the right time! You're so lucky!" My fortune had nothing to do with luck or chance. I made room for the Holy Spirit and got out of my own way. But at the time, I didn't know what the power was, nor did I ever try to give it a label or question it. I had this innate sense that everything was going to work out the way it was supposed to and it had very little to do with my planning. I still had to be *prepared* (education, work ethic, etc.) but the opportunities would show up for me without having to *plan* for them. I had complete trust in this system and it worked beautifully. I wasn't without trials or setbacks, but looking back on my life, the "no" always led to a better "yes." Something powerful and very unknown to me was leading me. I was happy.
Analyzing this innocent trust of my youth, I believe that part of my problem today is that I am trying to get through life on my own without help from this power. Think about what I just typed. **I am trying to get through life on my own without help from this power.** First, the sentence indicates *trying* with no mention of succeeding. Second, it says *get through life*. That is not living, that is survival existence. *Without any help from this power* has a lot of ego attached to it because it suggests that the power's contribution is secondary. My whole philosophy of handling things myself is completely off. Without leaning into this spirit filled guidance, I'm trying to figure it out by myself. Miss Independence is getting in the way of success and happiness. Where did I go wrong? Where did I lose that trust?
I think this change in me can be traced back to the moment I gave birth to my son. This tiny little human immediately became my responsibility to guide, protect, feed and support. As a new mom, even with the support and love from my husband, I felt the need to take over and control every aspect of my son's life as well as mine. Wayne Dyer joked in one of his speaking engagements that The Source creates the miracle in the womb for 9 months and as soon as the child is born, we say "Okay, thanks, we'll take it from here." His words made an impact on me. Why are we so egotistical to think that we are the only ones who can correctly plan our lives or the lives of our children. We are ALL born with the Divine Source within us, we just have to tune into its direction. The Holy Trinity is my source. It is all knowing and loves each of us deeply and unconditionally.
To further illustrate my point, I remember an episode on the Oprah show about how children are easier to coach through on a 911 call than adults are. The reason? In a crisis, they sense strong leadership and follow it. Adults question everything. They delay the process of healing because they want to know why they are being asked to perform certain actions. Children don't. They listen and follow instructions.
We get in our own way. We muddle situations for the Holy Spirit to work around and for God to turn into something good. He always will. We must learn to be led by His power. The gentle nature of the Holy Spirit is a gift. Listen and hear the whispers. Feel the pull to your destiny and be led to that place God has called you to go.
Seeds to Share:
Romans 8:14 - For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.
John 16:13 - When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come.